apathy

\Ap"a*thy\, n.; pl. Apathies. [L. apathia, Gr. ?; 'a priv. + ?, fr. ?, ?, to suffer: cf. F. apathie. See Pathos.] Want of feeling; privation of passion, emotion, or excitement; dispassion; -- applied either to the body or the mind. As applied to the mind, it is a calmness, indolence, or state of indifference, incapable of being ruffled or roused to active interest or exertion by pleasure, pain, or passion. ``The apathy of despair.'' --Macaulay.

A certain apathy or sluggishness in his nature which led him . . . to leave events to take their own course. --Prescott.

[Latin apatha, from Greek apatheia, from apaths, without feeling  : a-, without; see a-1 + pathos, feeling; see kwent(h)- in Indo-European Roots.]

I've got that feeling again
(nothing)
I'm as cold as a lake
and as dead as a rock
I am now immovable
dry as the sands I lost myself in
still as the water just after I had drowned
no call or cry
could rouse me from my trance
or conjure an emotion
to comfort you as the world died
the entire spectrum came crashing down to black and gray
no sufferer
no lover
no friend
no brother
could pull me out of the oceans gray
a black pit
a downard spiral
down at the bottom, nothing can surprise me now
I've lost the feeling
but I'm not in the warm numb of euphoria
or the elation of friendship
theres a gap in myself
filling with startling speed
with things I dare not describe